My pride and joy is finally here.

I’m officially a mother.

What will life look like now??

OMG…I’m really responsible for another human being??

These are just some of the thoughts I have been thinking since bringing Izzy home.

It has been three months since Izzy’s arrival into this world which has been such a life changer.

What is the 4th trimester?

The 4th trimester is essentially the first three months of your baby’s life after birth.

If you haven’t read my birth story, I need you to read that post first and then come back to this post.

1^st Month

The first month I have to say was the HARDEST. It was a learning curve for sure. I had to learn so much in a short period about feeding, pumping, which cry stands for what, baby acne, cradle cap, etc.

I was healing from my Cesarean Section and could barely move, let alone get out of the bed without help. Bending was a strict no-no and the month long bleeding was beyond annoying. Thank God for family, especially my sweet mom. Let me tell you, that woman took care of me, cooked for me, cleaned for me, without her I would have had a hard time getting myself adjusted.

During this month, my milk was still producing so I was substituting with formula. At this time, Izzy had already been introduced to formula from being in the NICU. However, when we got home, he was not liking it and became very fussy and gassy and we were having a difficult time latching onto the breast. So, this is when pumping became my best friend and sleep became non existing. I found myself pumping every two hours so that I could express to my body to produce more milk. Not only was I pumping every two hours but baby boy was also eating every two hours sometimes every hour.

Our first month together literally was pump, sleep, eat, and poop.

2^nd Month

I felt so home stricken during this month. I was only going out for doctor appointments and then coming back home. My c-section scar was healing but I still wasn’t feeling like my old self. I also became quite accustomed with only getting 2-3 hours of sleep at a time. Thankfully I started to produce milk to feed Izzy day and night which allowed me to stop formula feeding since he didn’t like it.

Izzy is such a sweet baby and only cries bloody murder when he wants his milk. He now knows mommy scent and at times only wants to be held by me. My little boy also loves to be held and fusses every time we lay him down. As much as I love holding my precious boy, it definitely becomes difficult when I have things to do around the house, so baby carrying became a must. It soothed him and allowed me to get my errands done.

3^rd Month

Absolutely the best month yet. I feel like a brand-new woman. I’m all settled into motherhood and I’m learning that there’s nothing wrong with wanting ‘me time’ away from the baby. Heading out to enjoy myself and scheduling some self care does not make me a bad mom. In fact, it helps me be a better mom.

We still have not conquered sleeping during the night because Izzy wakes up around 11/12 and 2/3 for food. Now the 11/12 hour I don’t particularly mind but the 2/3 AM hours I MIND. It would be kind if my baby boy just got up for food and went back to sleep but NO my baby boy wants to be wide awake looking for someone to play and laugh with.

Izzy is more alert now, he’s more vocal and coos all the time. He scratches himself and others, so I’m reduced to putting the mittens on him. Tummy time is not his favorite thing to do.

So as far as adjusting to this new journey goes, I will say I’m getting there. Nothing will be perfect but I do have a perfect baby boy. I feel so blessed and I don’t take being a mother for granted.

Signing out,

Windy