Game Face On

Hey Y’all Hey! Kijan ou Ye! How are you doing?

It’s been a while since I’ve written a blog! I literally took the entire month of June off but I’m back with my game face on.

As businesses are slowly starting to open back up here in New York, I am putting on my game face to brace the outside world because let’s be honest…. I’m overwhelmed…I’m frustrated…my anxiety has definitely been at an all-time high these past few weeks.

It has been hard finding the strength and mental capacity to put my all in my blog. Literally I have about 3 post just sitting in draft, including this one that you are reading. Lately, I’ve only had the strength to take care of my little one and show up for work at my 9-5.

We are still dealing with Rona…unfortunately. And it seems like there is no end in sight.

Its mind blowing how this year is going thus far. My first blog post this year was titled 2020 Vision and I must say that this year has definitely given us vision.

I started this year with so much passion and fire within to take my blog to the next level and to be more consistent. I was on a roll for the first quarter of the year but then Rona came and knocked me down. We are now half way through this year and I am struggling with consistency. However, I am learning to give myself some grace with everything that’s happening this year from Rona to watching the senseless killings and mistreatment of my fellow Black people and the F’NG White Supremacy rhetoric that needs to END!

I feel like I’ve been grieving, just in a thick pool of my own sorrow. I’ve learned that the only constant through all of this is FAITH. Leaning on faith and letting God be my light, be my vision to guide me through this season.

This season will be the birth of unimaginable change. Some are posting on social media, some are protesting in the streets, some are donating silently, some are educating themselves and some are having tough conversations with friends and family. The future will be different!

One poem that I’ve come across social media that reigns true is:

What if 2020 isn’t cancelled?

What is 2020 is the year we’ve been waiting for?

A year so uncomfortable, so painful, so scary, so raw – that it finally forces us to grow.

A year that screams so loud, finally awakening us from our ignorant slumber.

A year we finally accept the need for change.

Declare change. Work for change. Become the change.

A year we finally band together, instead of pushing each other further apart.

2020 isn’t cancelled, but rather

The most important year of them all.

– Leslie Dwight

So, as I continue on with the rest of this year with my game face on, I will not be so hard on myself for not being consistent with my blog because I know that I am being productive in other areas of my life.

Until the next post

Signing Out,

Live with purpose, Love with passion, Laugh with pleasure

5 Comments Add yours

  1. V.Richelle says:

    I can relate to this so much. Last year I ended up taking a break from blogging. My goal was to return to posting regularly this spring but Ms. Rona came and derailed all of that. I finally got it together and have posted twice in the last week. But I’m facing returning to teaching in the middle of a pandemic and there’s just so much uncertainty.

  2. mayadreamin says:

    Unbelievable how things have changed. All we can do is to continue bettering ourselves and stay productive!

  3. It has been such a scary ride the past few month, unfortunately things a spiking here with Corona due to all the vacationing,etc so I fear all our recent freedoms of things reopening are about to be shut down again.

  4. Katie Frazier says:

    I LOVE your outfit girl!

  5. Thagarah Haye says:

    I’m so in love with this poem on year 2020. It gives purpose to the year and history.
    Thanks for sharing

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